Ummmm yeah its October now..... wow its been way too long

'Cause you know,
you know, you know'

"That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore"

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up............

I FINALLY HAVE A MYSPACE PEOPLE!!! SO CHECK IT OUT AND ADD ME AS YOUR FRIEND. PEACE!!!

Its never really easy....but its ok....

www.myspace.com/javlex25

WOW. Sooo lastnight was my 3rd Annual Luau!!! And let me tell you it was amazing. At the pinnacle of the party i think in the range of 60-70 people were over here which was fuckin amazing. A lot of people couldnt come tho which kinda sucked for them but other than that it was INSANE! Ahahahah So much fun!!!  After the party me kristen and nick hung out for a bit then we went to Dennys and i finally got home around 3:30 and fell asleep...Loooong day considering i had been up since 7 am for work. So yay... AWESOME PARTY! lol

Sooo today i went down to Columbus with my parents to pick up my moms masters degree from OSU cuz she graduated (omg that woman..she has 2 masters degrees and lots of other crap i dont even know! lol). Then we went over to her home town of Pickerington to check on her old house we rent and visit my grandparents graves... It was weird for me cuz i have not been back there for a long time. It just brings back sooo much of my past and the way life was and never will be again... and the whole day i just held back crying.... I cry so easily now.. I cry every day a few times a day and i really just dont want to hurt or cry anymore  I guess life is just moving way to fast and my hearts not along for the ride...

.....God send me an angel

"I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel..... "

OOOOMG i found my old yahoo photos and i forgot i had all these pics of when my hair was blonde last summer!!!! Awww good times!!!